I want to want. I want to want to do what i do. I want to do what i want. I want to do and to want to do more. I want to do and do until i don’t want any more. I want to not want to do anything except for what i do. I want to want to be me. I want to want to want. I want to do what i would want to do. I want to do what i do when i want. I want to do what makes me want. I want to know what i want to do. I want to do what i want to know how to do. I know how to do what i want to do when i know what i want.
“Find what interests you” – CRRRRRAAAAAASH
How do i find what interests me? How do i know? How do i go on if this is such a problem? What does it feel like when something interests me? Do i feel it in my body? Where? Or do i know it with my mind?
I have spent a lot of time this week being lost. I just realised it now. Maybe that’s why i am so tired. Lost in space, lost in improvisation, lost in trying to have images, lost in myself, my will and drive. Lost in connection to others, to another. Lost in the forest, lost in time. Lost in the story of my life. But i am still here and the world around me is still around me. I guess these are the basic things that never change. Is that a good thing?
I don’t know what i learnt this week. I feel a bit lost.
Michael Shapira 
Du skriver så fint. Jag läser alla dina bloggposter! Har dig uppe i min bloggrad med de bloggar jag följer. Kram, hoppas att vi snart ses!
Tack, Eva! Det känns som en mycket stor komplimang att du följer min blogg 🙂 Kram kram
Dear Michael,
I just found your blog and this post via Mischa Straßer’s babeltiger website. I have wanted (or not wanted) something for a few weeks now, but have been unable to express what it is that I want (or not want, possibly). Although not new, this has been very frustrating. The fact that you express, if not the want or whatever in itself, then at least that sense of frustration, comes as a great relief. I still have no idea what I want, but should you decide to write more (apart from practicing yoga and dancing of course), I’d be very happy. Your writing is excellent.
Jasmin (from Yoga Sky)
Jasmin ! Thank you ! I shall take this as an official kick in my not-so-royal-butt and get to work. But i’ll have to start by reading my own blog post… it’s been a while ! 😉