Buzz:

noun

1. a continuous low sound:
I heard a buzz and then saw the plane in the distance.

2 INFORMAL a feeling of excitement, energy and pleasure:
I love cycling fast – it gives me a real buzz.

Taken from: http://dictionary.cambridge.org/

Jonesing: verb

to have a strong need, desire, or craving for something.

I’m jonesing for some sushi.

Taken from: http://www.urbandictionary.com/

Thank you Lisa and Matt !

I had a dream tonight about flying, cities in the sand, a wolf and feeling guilty. Today has been a day with no real motivation. I feel like i keep waiting for the moment to come when i feel that the group has gone on or some friendships take form and i am left behind. I wonder why i have this idea that this should happen.

It has been warmer today, with clowds and some snowfall. I think the past days have been the coldest i have ever experienced, with temperatures below -20 celcius. Some practical issues have also been solved today: i have a plane ticket to Karlsruhe (close to Freiburg) and Stephanie wrote to me on Facebook, saying she can host me and Nina. So in my tired and low- energy state i know that some positivte things are happening that are going to give me support later on.

A walk in the snow, packed and frozen snow, a half frozen stream, going uphill and then downhill, making lunch, getting help from friends, communicating, learning, offering, asking, eating (mmmm), sinking into silence, two in a studio, feeling, digging, squeezing, shaking, brushing, sighing, breathing, thanking, rolling, a third enters, seeing, not seeing, asking, wondering, silence, rolling, squeezing, being squeezed, feeling pain, singing, laughing, talking, singing, laughing, fooling with the piano, singing, feeling tired and content.

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