I had a dream tonight about flying, cities in the sand, a wolf and feeling guilty. Today has been a day with no real motivation. I feel like i keep waiting for the moment to come when i feel that the group has gone on or some friendships take form and i am left behind. I wonder why i have this idea that this should happen.

It has been warmer today, with clowds and some snowfall. I think the past days have been the coldest i have ever experienced, with temperatures below -20 celcius. Some practical issues have also been solved today: i have a plane ticket to Karlsruhe (close to Freiburg) and Stephanie wrote to me on Facebook, saying she can host me and Nina. So in my tired and low- energy state i know that some positivte things are happening that are going to give me support later on.